Fear

The voltaren has kicked in. Back pain has eased. Still
Remember the Oncologist said the pain to watch out for
Was the one that woke me in the night?
Osteosarcoma? First signs are bone tenderness.
Can’t feel a tumour though, like Dr Google said I might.

Migraine has passed, thank god. Nauseous, though.
Maybe I don’t have a glioblastoma. Still
I’ve ticked the first four signs of it!
No incontinence though, and this unbalanced sensation
Could be that vestibular disequilibrium, like they said.

This damn black freckle, oh, washed off; dirt!
Melanoma wouldn’t surprise me. All that baby oil
Just to look cool in my teenage tanned skin. Still
These freckles do look darker, and this one is rough.
My father had skin cancer, but not the hereditary one.

Blood test came back normal; just fatigued.
Wasn’t fatigue the first sign that Eve’s husband noted?
Myeloid leukaemia? Or was it lymphoma? He bled though.
That cut on my hand has healed, no bruising. Still
It did really bleed. No, perhaps not that much.